Disappointment is the feeling I have now. Not becoz I don't have a wonderful celebration & not becoz I don't have friends to celebrate with me & definitely not becoz I don't have wonderful gifts from my friends. The reason of disappointment lies within me. Nowadays, I tend to get emotional very easily, probably due to my montly "auntie's visit". I can get very emotional even of very trivia matters.
These few months a lot of things happened too quickly that I am not even prepared to accept all these challenges. I'm trying so hard to manipulate the whole situations that I nearly can't breathe. Yes... this way of saying shown only a very irresponsible person and not a very good challenger. But the thing is that I have been trying so hard to handle all the matters with care but the things are not going the right ways. Sometimes, I do want to prove to others that I can do it... I definitely will... but then there's some unknown factors keep holding me back from proving myself. Someone told me that I can do things very well compared to some people if I want, but then I'm not forceful enough. Well, I do think that this person's words do make sense to me. Or probably the things I am doing now are not my cup of tea or probably there are too many fierce competitors that affect my level of confidence. *Really ponder*
My heart feel hurt when I want to lend a helping hand for someone I care even though I know that I am of little help. The most I can do is listen to their whines & complaints. Probably Libra guys are more stubborn... no matter how u say him or scare him, he will stillheck care choose to avoid those hurtful words. I wonder why they juz can't take more good care on their health! Elder one is like that now even the younger one also like that. If you really know that all of us are worried about you, why not just do something and prove to us that you are big enough to take care of urself and not always making all of us worrying for you! Now this kind of worries will slowly turned into anger & tears. It is really a waste of energy for persuading pple who don't listen. Is working really that important that u can neglect ur health now? Do we really need to work that hard in order to have a good living? Is good living that important until you can forget about ur pain? Are we not satisfy with the things we have now? Or in simple word, you just can't let go the things that u are holding on now...
These few months a lot of things happened too quickly that I am not even prepared to accept all these challenges. I'm trying so hard to manipulate the whole situations that I nearly can't breathe. Yes... this way of saying shown only a very irresponsible person and not a very good challenger. But the thing is that I have been trying so hard to handle all the matters with care but the things are not going the right ways. Sometimes, I do want to prove to others that I can do it... I definitely will... but then there's some unknown factors keep holding me back from proving myself. Someone told me that I can do things very well compared to some people if I want, but then I'm not forceful enough. Well, I do think that this person's words do make sense to me. Or probably the things I am doing now are not my cup of tea or probably there are too many fierce competitors that affect my level of confidence. *Really ponder*
My heart feel hurt when I want to lend a helping hand for someone I care even though I know that I am of little help. The most I can do is listen to their whines & complaints. Probably Libra guys are more stubborn... no matter how u say him or scare him, he will still
However, do u know that with a healthy body & mind, then you can have a better performance in ur job? Haiz... Is not that all of us like to nag u... Is just that all of us are too worried & concerend about you.
So Dad, when do you want to go & see a doc & treat ur swollen ankle that has been around for a month?
And you... when will you rest more & do less?
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